Its Been a Year

Well, a quiet night and so I thought I would write a quick note:

One year ago tomorrow mine and Ethans world was tossed upside down by one single email.

At the time I had no idea what we were going to do. A week before we were supposed to move into our new house and start the new leg in our lives, and now all of a sudden we were moving to a big house all by ourselves. So much uncertainty and shock and a total colapse of all things that we thought were right.

Found a job in May, and ended my maternity leave early so that I could support my little boy and make sure he was taken care of. Left that job in September and started commuting to Toronto again for more money, and ability to hopefully keep the house.

Fast forward a few months and things were adjusting fairly well. I had moved forward with my life as a completely single mom, and I think I was doing a fantastic job; no time to wonder what could be fixed, just time to move forward for the best future for Ethan. Lonely some days, but over all, easily manageable.

Fast forward some more, and we hit Christmas. 8 months since the separation and we are well adjusted. Dad is finally starting to take an interest in Ethan and we set up a schedule of every other weekend visitation.

New Years, well, what can I say ... BEST EVER!!! The start of a new year, a new beginning and a new amazing relationship.

And then here we are now ... 1 year post separation. The year has absolutely flown by. Absolutely nothing has been resolved regarding the separation other then a partial visitation schedule which is only followed 1/2 the time, but we are working towards resolution on these things.

Ethan is doing amazing. He is learning so much, and is growing way to quickly. Less then 2 months from now he is going to be 2 years old .... wow....

Each day learning new things, and picking up new words. He has become a parrot and enjoys mimicking what others around him do.
He has a great new relationship with Chris, and his 2 kids, Chloe and Chase and he is always so excited to see them when they come home.

Me .... well ... couldn't be happier. Everything in life happens for a reason, and this is the best possible thing that could have ever happened. Looking back, the best thing to come of my marriage was the birth of my amazing young boy. He has kept me positive on negative days, and he pushed me to move forward with my life in the early weeks of the separation. His smile, his laugh and his hugs make everything else in this world disappear.

And then there is the new additions to my life: Chris, Chloe, Chase and Pepper. We have become our own little family and everyone is adjusting in such amazing ways. Chris is the one I have searched for and always desired. He is my soul mate, and we have an absolutely amazing future ahead of us. So many things to do as a couple and as a family; camping, roller coasters, walks, exploring, sports, enjoying each others company, talking, laughing, and just enjoying life as a whole.

So, to wrap it all up, I would have never guessed at this time last year that I would be where I am today, but I am very happy to be where we are.

First Hair Cut

Well I finally did it!! I took Ethan for his first hair cut today. Just a trim to make everything more even and get the hair out of his eyes.

He did an awesome job and look so cute and grown up now.

We went to Little Tots in Pickering. They had themed chairs for the kids to play in and a huge ball pit for them to play in before and after their hair cut.

My little boy is getting so big.

My oh My .... Almost 2?

Well, tomorrow my little man will be 20 months old - Just 4 more months until he is 2. Really? Where has the time gone? It is hard to believe that I will have a 2 year old little boy in such a few short months, but at the same time it is quite exciting.

Again I am loving this stage with all the learning and progress we are making. It is just unbelievable. Each day more and more attempts for words and even starting to try and have full out conversations.

Yesterday morning we were getting dressed, and he was counting with me. He is starting to recognize colours and he can point out Blue, Green, Yellow and Red almost always when we are looking at stories. He knows all his body parts, and is doing so great. I am very lucky to have a generally happy, pleasant and smart little boy.

Yesterday with all the snow that we got, we went out with some friends to play in the snow and go for a ride in a sled. He had a great time except when he couldn't walk because the snow was too deep. He was so cute all bundled up in his snow suit though.

He eventually decided he was done playing in the snow and wanted to try and do the slides and the playground. It was quite fun to watch his determination of climbing the steps and getting onto the slide. Definitley wasn't an easy thing to do in his snow suit but he managed quite well. He had a great time, and now mommy needs to find a good tobaggan for him so that he can maybe try going down a hill :) 

On a side note, it looks like we should be able to keep our house and not have to move anytime soon, which is a good thing as the housing market isn't too nice right now for any profit on our house. Life is coming along very well with great new opportunities and fun for 2013. Life for Ethan and I is definitley coming together and looking very positive. This is continuing to be an amazing year, and although it is flying by already, we are enjoying each and every minute of it :) 

Good Bye 2012 - Hello 2013

Wow, what a year it has been. Lots of changes in our lives and many ups and downs, but overall the year has been the ending of something and the beginning of others.

Ethan has become a very well adjusted and amazing little boy. Our lives as a 2 person family have had their hard times, but over all it has been an amazing adventure that is just going to be even more exciting this coming year!

As the first day of 2013 draws to a close I thought I should write a quick note to say how excited I am for this coming year. 2012 can kiss my a** and 2013 is being accepted with open arms.

April 2012 was the start of a new venture for Ethan and I and so far I think we have done a great job. With the amazing support from my parents who have given me the help when needed, as well as my close friends who have been the shoulders to cry on and to vent to. Thank you to each and every one of you (you know who you are). I can not express to any of you enough how much I love you and how much our relationships mean to us!!

Summer 2012 came the beginning of meeting some amazing new friends who I hope to keep close to my life and my heart for many months and years to come. Amazing people who have gone through similar situations and who have accepted me for who I am and what I have been through. Everyone should be so lucky to meet people like this. Completely open, honest and non-judgemental. Since joining my 'separation 2 success' group I have found my life again, and reinvested in my happiness. I have gotten back who I was before and re-acquired my social life. It has been amazing to meet each of these people and although it is sad to see that divorce is what brought us all together, it is nice in the end as we have made some very close bonds.

Christmas this year was a strange one. Happy yet sad, Lonely yet Loving! Surrounded by my family and my son for Christmas morning was all I could ask for. The day ended with a very quiet night at home, but allowed for some great reflection time.

New Years 2012 - What can I say - WOW! Again a quiet evening with time to reflect on the past year and to start thinking about how 2013 is going to be. A new job, new friends, and new life to live. Special people have entered into my life and I can't wait to see how things develop over the near and far future. Again you know who you are :)

Life has its ups and downs, and its twists and turns, but in the end it knows what it is doing. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger and we will fight forward to find the perfect life to live. We will be the ones to choose what we will do with our lives and when the time is right to move forward. No one can tell us different for it is only us who knows our own heart!

My resolution for 2013 is to find true happiness and keep being me.